free time?

So..after another unexpected delay blogging, I clamber awkwardly behind the keyboard again. heh

This time I did it to myself. I am always in need of more exercise, but overdid it badly last weekend, passed out, bumped my head and spent much of the week recovering. My husband is understandably exasperated. The best news about it all was discovering after my little episode that my blood sugar, heart sounds, responsiveness etc are all wonderful. No edema, no easily detectable weirdness. Apparently I am in great shape for the shape I am in, but so much for 'pushing the envelope' to get in better health! oh well... Gave me more time to finish Sam & Max (an adventure game), as I still couldn't concentrate on my more serious writing.

I do love to write. I can tell the bug is coming back on me by the way I keep regaling my family with little anecdotes from the past, silly dreams, etc. & also because finding, touching up and printing up my old Myst novel has been on my mind again. I am sure I archived it in its various incarnations, but I am not at all sure I can dredge up sufficient enthusiasm for the task, nor-as far as I know- is anyone still waiting for it with baited breath, so why is the thought of it still unsent bothering me unless its because I regard it (at some level) as an unfinished task. I don't enjoy leaving loose ends.

Not actually doing much writing as yet because every time I think about settling to it, I remember how many other things I could stand to be doing right now. I need to vacuum again. I haven't checked many friends' blogs in a long time now. I need to make sure my son actually does finish his English, Math, history etc today - and really I need to spend more talking & studying with both of my young'uns generally now that their father is doing better again. Understandably both want more dedicated interaction to make sure they are on target with where they should be academically. My son even wants to review his older books again. Its not an unreasonable desire, but everything takes time.

& I still have that one project we were working on this spring just waiting for me to get back to it. (I'd like to finish it before the Christmas season.) Seems like everything I do comes at the expense of something else good I could be doing - like I am always playing 'catch up.'

I really thought by the time I'd been married & homeschooling this long we'd have settled everything into a nice pattern, but here we are still covering skipped areas from before, going over things again to make sure we've covered that topic adequately, etc. We've had a number of little home repairs in the last years too that - until fixed- put life into 'coping' mode for that week or month. I used to tell my kids what it was like to have to share one car, or have bring in all your drinking water, or have to dump all washing water by hand or what washing clothes was like before washing machines. Now- they also know for themselves, and are very grateful when full service returns! They seem to have picked up the biggest lesson from such challenges. They know now how fragile 'modern life' really is - and how important it is to be flexible in your daily expectations. God provides for those who trust in Him, but He doesn't promise a Sears & Roebucks' existence!

Seems like the life I have always had has consisted of quiet spells of recovery in between bouts of largely unexpected excitements. Its not been all bad by any means, but it is rarely in any danger of settling into the sort of 'average' routines many people regard as the normal condition of modern life. I hate making appointments or plans too far down the road. 7 times out of 10, something is just likely to happen that will upset them. Course James 4: 13-15 suggests we shouldn't be so stuck on making plans anyway ~ I take comfort in that. ::grin::

13 Come now, ye that say, To-day or to-morrow we will go into such a city, and continue there a year, and buy, and sell, and get gain:
14 Whereas ye know not what will be on the morrow: For what is your life? It is even a vapor, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away.
15 Instead of that ye ought to say, If the Lord will, we shall live, and do this, or that.